the masochist's verse

I knew I'd never leave you --
Never forget nor forgive for all the times
We'd not kissed goodbye; aversion of your eyes from mine
With a certain fire, a terrifying kind
But still enticing my hand to the flame
to scar over my fingers, to hurt the same
Not pushpins to my thighs or whip to flesh
Nothing overcame your worst, as it was their best
Light me ablaze, my wounds and wax, my candle melts for only you
could cauterize that searing hope I felt.

Your eyes are tattooed into my cortex.